This week has been one of memories. I have been clearing out things in the house and came across old photos which sparked so many wonderful memories of travels and family events. The new photo above was taken at an incredible place my mother and I rented in Mashpee in Cape Cod. It was the first time I had ever seen snow on a beach. It was truly beautiful. It was the first time I heard the weather forecasters get it absolutely right, when they said it was going to start snowing at 2:15pm, it did!!
After all the trauma with my car which needed more repairs which were just astronomical to fix, I had no choice but to trade it in and buy a new one. Yippee!! The huge benefit to a new car is that it comes with a 3 year warranty. I cannot tell you what that has done for my state of mind. It is such a pleasure to now know that when I drive anywhere, I don’t have that clench of fear in my stomach that the car will break down yet again.
The festive season was really quiet only spending Christmas Day with my brother and sister-in-law. They came to me for lunch where I cooked my first Vegan Christmas meal which included the traditional nut roast, but made in a silicon Bundt pan, also made a cashew creamy potato gratin, a mushroom stuffing, chantenay carrots, beans, with a mushroom gravy and ending with a nice brownie cake topped with banana nice cream. As they are both still meat eaters, they brought some beef and turkey to add to their meal. It was probably not my most successful meal, but at least I know what not to do for this year!!
Like everyone else living in the UK, we are experiencing Lock Down 3.0 which has come with its own set of problems. I am finding this time much more difficult particularly being motivated to get back down to work after two weeks off over the holiday season. Although the one bright spot has to be the approval of the various Covid vaccines here in the UK. My Dad who is 82 and his lovely partner have both been given their first dose which is such a relief. I am quite far down on the list, but with any luck, I should have mine by the summer.
My sense of self seems to have shrunk. I listen to Chris Evans in the morning and his show is always filled with lots of interesting people sharing their ideas of mindfulness and practical ideas on how to cope with life at the moment. I do find it really inspirational but can’t seem to put these ideas into practice in my own life.
I also seem to have plateaued with my weight loss although I haven’t put on any, I haven’t lost either. I think this is also adding to my lack of self esteem at the moment. I am sure there are lots of people round the globe feeling exactly the same way, but when it’s happening to you, its really hard to get out of the “blue funk”.
I don’t believe in New Years resolutions, so this year I am going to aim to try something new each month. First on my list it to buy a book called “Tiny Habits” by BJ Fogg and try and put a lot of what he suggests into practice.
The first thing I have done is actually write a To-Do list. Hopefully over the next few months, I will actually be able to tick some of those off instead of making excuses for not doing any of them. Tiny Habits lead to major milestones.
Wherever you are, I hope you are living your best life and just know that if you are suffering depression or loneliness, you are not alone and there is always help available. Stay strong, stay safe and remember that there is a light at the end of all of this and we all will come out on the other side.